This high alert crisis mode that I’ve been in since 11/9 is really wearing on me.
We are on the brink of nuclear war with no way out, we are in the midst of a drug addiction pandemic that is literally leaving children to rot (see alta vista,ia) with no funding, our troops and virtually every department of our government is demoralized and understaffed, our president is exacerbating everything for attention and because he’s living in a ‘ratings reality’, and now we are about to experience, yet another, massive wealth transfer leaving pretty much everyone even broker than we already are. Which is obviously going make us dumber and less healthy in the long run. Half our country is in rubble after losing everything because of natural disasters. Pretty much everywhere else in the world is experiencing turmoil too.
As if things couldn’t get bleaker. The ‘me too’ campaign might be making some people feel less alone but for me it’s just brought a tsunami of flashbacks of past sexual abuses that I’ve survived, sought therapy for, and shut the door on. It’s all exposed again and now I know for sure that sex abuse in this country is happening every second of everyday to almost everyone. Getting sexually violated is the norm not the outlier.
It takes a lot less time to burn a house down than it takes to build one. Our separation of powers and checks and balances system isn’t working, it’s crumbling.
I’m simultaneously planning to run for state house rep while researching how to get citizenship to literally anywhere but the states. I don’t want to jump ship but if this talking anus gets a second term, I’m out. Which he probably will.
WTF has helped a lot because it saves me from having to check multiple sources multiple times a day which makes my anxiety skyrocket and I know I can just dive in when I’m ready and get caught up quickly but I should probably quit reading the news. Matt, I sincerely thank you. Your poor soul has to fully immerse itself daily in this shit storm in order to keep us informed.
I quit watching t.v. long ago and that helped but now i’m thinking of choosing ignorance. I thought staying informed was my best way of fighting this beast but it’s just too much too bear.
Thanks for allowing me to have a place to put this. Sorry in advance for being such a negative snowflake. Let’s all try to give more hugs right now.